Strength please come to me....

I thought going thru things and enduring was going to make me stronger. I feel like have been to hell and back for nothing. I'm still stuck and no further then when I was in hell. Everyone around me is moving forward and going and doing.  I'm still trying to figure out what I want out of life and where the hell im going and if I'm going in the right direction. I pray that God directs me in the right direction and to help me make good decisions and I don't know if he hears me any more. I already feel like I'm not doing the whole religion thing right. I pray to God and I try to build relationship but when I comes to worship and praising God I feel like I'm lacking. Like EXTREMELY LACKING..... I don't know what to do or even how to fix it.