Continuos Disappointment...

For some odd reason I get in my feelings when I'm on social media because I realize that all I do is browse other people's lives and want what they have. I.e. Friends,having fun, going places, being happy. I know I can have all that if I just put myself out there and do it but I'm so damn lazy. I have all these dreams and things I wanna do in life and I continue to hold myself back for what reason I don't know. I have always wanted to be independent and creative in all aspects of my life but I dream and don't get up and do it. It's the most irratting thing in the world. To always be disappointed in myself and feel stuck. I know how to get unstuck but it's like my body won't let me. My mind is saying okay we gotta do this and this and this but my body is like I think we should nap and chill we got time. But I don't have time. I can't keep doing this to myself. It's  not healthy and it's annoying beyond anything.